hEllo

Left my blog due to busy schedule. How am i? Hm alhamdulillah everything went well but the outcome i'm not really sure macam mana. Just tunggu and hope for the best je la.
So yeah end of semester 5! As usual, long and tough journey but for the past 2 years i can say that this year, semester 5 is one of my "stand out" kind of moment. I was elected to present in front of an architect. Overall there were 12 people including me and only 3 people will be selected for the final, unfortunately, i tak sampai to top 3 pun but untuk orang yg dah banyak suffer in this course i boleh cakap yg this is one of my biggest achievement ever. I do tried and gave my very best for this sem and friends yg banyak tolong thank you so much. And i learnt something juga through this sem, most of it banyak yg unexpected. Lepas satu, satu jadi. Tapi takpe la benda dah lepas ek...

Now cuti sem, tengah mencari tempat practical. Ingat nk yg senang-senang je kerja nya cause to be honest, architecture is not my thang pastu nk yg dekat-dekat je sbb nk minimal kan cost tapi yg dekat-dekat semua dah tak nak pakai orang. So i was thinking cam hantar je la resume kat a few tempat cause tak jamin boleh dapat pun kan if satu so try je la lagipun tak leh nk picky sangat takut tak dapat. For now, alhamdulillah dah jumpa 3 tapi idk man takutnya smh wish me luck! So that's it. I'll let you know later.

alhamdulillah

Today is the day. Finally! Hari yg selama ni dirisaukan finally coming. Today is the result. Jeng jeng jeng hihi Alhamdulillah I passed all the subjects. Even tak dekan pun but still syukur sangat cause my pointer naik. Berapa pointer? 3 point something. I’m quite proud of myself. Hm congrats Amira, you’re doing ok! So yeah end of semester 4! Wah how time flies kan, tak sangka sekejap je dah nak sem 5. Rasanya baru haritu daftar sem 1, nangis nangis nak balik, nak berhenti and nak tukar course. Tak sangka I could make it sampai dah nak sem 5 dah. One more sem to go, after ni sem 5 and then practical and then habis. I can’t wait to end this diploma, penat rasanya ulang alik pd. Harap sem akan datang pointer naik lagi and dapat going trough dengan baik.  

2017

Hi. Hello. Woah, I did not realise how time pass through sampai la teringat tarikh result keluar. Haih I'm so scared whenever teringat pasal result. This 21st ni result keluar. OMG!!! 

This sem? Huh hardly-breathing.
To be honest, this sem susah sangat. I'm so afraid that I couldn't make it. Nak sangat dapat result best best tapi I didn't hope too much, nak dapat kan semua A for all subjects memang susah so I have to admit that if lulus je pun dah syukur dah alhamdulillah. As usual design gave me so much hard times, tak kisah la in what sem but when it comes to design memang scary. But alhamdulillah even design ni gave me so much hard times, but I made it sampai ke sem 4 with the hardships that I've been through. Bila design je tak pernah la tak nangis.

So, I always had this thoughts. Habis je diploma ni, is it worth it habiskan 3 years in architecture? I had my doubts, what if at the end of the day, this course was not meant for me? What if it's such a waste belajar 3 tahun but I have nothing to show? What if this? What if that? Ugh so much doubts... Selama hidup ni tak pernah terfikir pun nak ambil this course, I couldn't make it nak masuk first intake, so for the second intake I'll just give it a try apply as much as possible. So I did my research a bit about this course but research ala kadar je la. Back then, masa dapat course ni, still tak sure so I thought tukar je la since I'm not into architecture pun but peluang datang sekali, everyone asked me to give it a try because you will never know, so yeah terima dengan hati yg gelisah.

First sem was the toughest sem ever, dgn takda background apa apa yg berkaitan in architecture. First sem memang rasa nk give up rasa nk berhenti but I had this thoughts pula yg tak semua orang dapat masuk belajar, bila I had the chance kenapa nak sia sia kan. Time passes, dah boleh terima and I thought belajar je la sebab dah masuk dah pun, tak boleh nak buat apa sampai and sedar tak sedar dah sem 4 dah. Every day were tough. Menangis tak tinggal. I had so much hard times nak buat semua tu so bila lulus je I didn't doubts much. Terima dengan apa yg dah diusahakan.

But these doubts, what if it's not worth it at the end of the day? Setiap hari I wonder. Hm. Sometimes I just wish that I could fast forward time, just to see if it's all worth it in the end...

Hm always in my du'a that I pass to sem 6 tak kisah la what happen at the end of the day. Tak elok nak doubt kan? Everything have a reason. Have faith in Allah and just gonna do my best :') Doakan I pass all of the subjects, dapat pointer best best!

Amin.

time flies so fast

How time flies... Pejam celik pejam celik dah week 12 dah for semester 4 ni. To be honest, this sem is the toughest sem ever. Actually since sem 1 lagi dah tough dah tapi this sem i tell you mmg tak boleh nk chill. I was too busy with assignments, satu minggu tu padat je dgn assignments. Of course design la yg paling teruk. I can't stand it, tapi ada satu sem lagi nk hadap design. Tak sabarnya nk habis, I'm so tired with poli's life. Malas dah nk ulang alik pd semua tu, I'm so tired :'( Mmg tak sabar nk habis but takut gila design this sem. Makin lama makin susah, makin banyak benda nk kena catch up. Lagi lagi kite ni dah la tak pandai, slow pula tu. Nk kejar tu susah. Hope sgt this sem lepas